 You are the mountain, I am a molehill. You make me see how little I can be. You are the ocean, I am a puddle. You are the Saviour, i'm saved by You You are the whole world, I'm just one person. Yet You still treat me as Your son. You are the ricefield, I'm but a rice grain. You are the Saviour, I'm saved by You But sometimes i keep forgetting, and then i work as if i own this world. Then You enter my life again, leading and guiding me, making me humble once again. You're the bed of roses, i'm but a leaf All these beauty can't compare with You You're the sunshine, amidst the darkness. You're my my Saviour, i'm saved by You. You're the forest, i'm just a sapling, yet you see how much potential i bring. When i am in despair, i know i can count on You. For You're my Saviour, I'm saved by you. There are times when I doubted You. You were like a distant memory. Not knowing that I needed You. You reminded me of the magnitude of the sacriface Your only Son made KICKED ASS AT 1/26/2006 10:46:00 AM.
memoirs of a gayshaKICKED ASS AT 1/24/2006 04:56:00 PM. I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did You fell so hard I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh Every day of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I watched you die I heard you cry Every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry In the middle of the night For the same damn thing Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid Because of you Because of you ---------- I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not buy myself the same 4d numbers that you bought I will not bet the usual bid, a hundred big only I've learned the hard way, to never buy it at ntuc. Because of you I never strike 4d for so long Because of you I learned to play it on the safe side So I don't "lugi" Because of you I find it hard to trust the car's 4 numbers whenever a car "langah"s Because of you I am humji I lose more cash And it's not too long before i go bankrupt I cannot cry Because i no more money to buy tissue I'm forced to borrow, from "da er long" who charge me "cheap" interests, My legs will possibly break When i don't have enough money to pay them. Because of you I never strike 4d for so long Because of you I learned to play it on the safe side So I don't "lugi" Because of you I find it hard to trust the car's 4 numbers whenever a car "langah"s Because of you I am humji I watched you win I heard you scream whenever you touch toto I was so "gong" i should have known better than to buy 4d You never thought of giving me chan. You just take money And now I'm broke with no more cash to buy abaloneeeeeeee.... Because of you I never strike 4d for so long Because of you I learned to play it on the safe side So I don't "lugi" Because of you I tried every number, just to compensate Because of you I don't know how to pay "da er long" moneyyyyy Because of you they hang a pig's head on my door, when it's empty Because of you I am humji.. Because of you Because of you KICKED ASS AT 1/23/2006 11:58:00 PM.
this entry's so cool, i had to post it!Now don't you know that one cold word is going to lead to anotherAnd then we'll have nowhere to go Even if heaven and earth collide tonight We'll be all alone in a different light I don't care what the world can't see It's just between you and me ----------------- i have no idea why this song suddenly popped in my head. it's totally nostalgic, and so cool, i had to post it! ;D this time now is 4.22.54am and i just returned home from MOS Burger.. no wait.. just MOS. i have no idea why this sentence suddenly popped in my head. it's totally dumb, and so cool, i had to post it! ;D ANYWAY yea i just came home from the Ministry of Sound, (sounds so harry potterish.) the place is kinda cool, with all the different rooms for different music, and huge place to dance in. the turn-off about that place is that despite the huge area, the club is JAM PACKED. like, STRAWBERRY JAM PACED in between 2 slices of High 5 white bread. (that phrase was so cool, i had to post it! ;D) was also the 1st time i've seen so many red hairs around. (translate yourself) BUT! what was SO SO SO SO SO damn-cool-i-had-to-post-it kind of cool was that there's a tv screen in front of every cubicle in the gent's toilet! OMG! i'd bet the ladies' toilet doesn't have it. HAH. wait, i'm so sleepy, i've decided to sleep 1st before i snooze during mass tomorrow again. i'll be back later in the evening to prove that there's a so damn-cool-i-had-to-post-it kind of cool toilet-which-has-a-tv-screen-in-front-of-every-cubicle but posting a picture. for now, good nite! ------------------- HA, i'm back and i'm here to prove to you special toilets DO exists! bahahah..  TADAHH isn't it like one of the coolest things on earth? not really, i'm just making a mountain out of a molehill. ANYWAY before that, i was at estrella's chalet celebrating her 21st birthday.  there's the birthday girl. i've got to admit, this is one of the better pictures i've taken in a long while.. normally, my smiles would be forced and i'll probably look constipated, wanting some antacid tablets very badly. after looking at this pic just a few seconds ago, it just dawned on me that i'm FREAKING old already. the 1 in my age is going to be replaced by a 2! the only time i remember having the same feeling was when i was 9 going on 10. i was a monkey then, (not that i'm not one now.) and i was so excited about my birthday that i practically jumped up and down, left and right, diagonal.. (you get the idea). this year, i'll be turning 20 in thailand.... :( sawadika! damn it's 12am already, and i have to wake up early tomorrow to go back to camp. shudders. i might post tomorrow again about what i do in camp tho.. (if you remind me,) KICKED ASS AT 1/22/2006 04:20:00 AM. |
ME hi, i'm ben, you can call me ben, ben tan, benjamin tan, choc god, whatever.. just don't call me suzy. i'm your not-so-average guy next door (if you really are my neighbour), otherwise i'm just your not-so-average guy. i'm fascinated with ah bengs and their ability to survive in the world right here right now. if i have the money and time and an ah beng, i'll conduct a series of tests and experiments to see how they do it. don't you wanna know too? BY GEORGE... OTHER MEs. cheap shoes!! vic paul miss phua jocheben jasmine beckie isabelle germaine joy gay ben yo. manuel mark camilia cat sophie isa rach incredible tales.. of xiaoming do you like to talk cock? blogger GREETINGS.. BUAY PAISEH AH 
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