 you know what's painful? it's in seeing somebody you love with someone else whom she loves so dearly but obviously he doesn't. KICKED ASS AT 8/07/2004 11:11:00 PM. sometimes, life is just so unfair. sometimes during that sometimes, you could only tolerate that much of the unfairness. but sometimes during that sometimes of that sometimes, you'll burst open like an active volcano in hawaii, unable to hold out much longer. unfairness has different perspectiveness. a case of unfairness is the way people treat you differently from others, unfair in the sense that you wanted something badly but in the end, someone else who didn't want it so badly got it in the end, unfair being people blaming you for the things you've done no wrong in, and finally, unfair as in loving somebody but that person doesn't not return that much love to you. let me draw you a scenario where unfairness is shown in the way people treat you. you want your friend to go do a favour for you. that bastard of a friend of yours declined doing the favour because..... he needs to trim his toenails at home. but when another person asks the same favour to the same friend, he'll gladly do anything for him and at no cost, in addition to that, he'll lick his feet clean and do his homework for him. confused? you're welcome. it's ok i guess, maybe it depends on other factors as well. but don't you feel like shit when you are being treated this way? it is like your friendship is no longer important to the person anymore. let me digress a littl' while the thought's still fresh in my mind. the speak-with-a-fake american accent is the in thing now. tay ping hui does it ( in addition to bimbotic jacelyn tay trying to act interllectual and failed in the end.. "in modelling, you need to be hamsome.... i've got egg years of modelling experience." ), my gp teacher's hairdresser does it, simon cowell does it. i tried a bit to speak-with-a-fake american accent to reuben but failed in the end, i say, like, totally. back on track. unfair in the sense that you wanted something badly but in the end, someone else who didn't want it so badly got it in the end. now isn't that just dandy? in other words, doesn't it suck? well it does. making sure you fail in the things you do seems to be the objectives of others. just by seeing you disappointed gives them a sadistic pleasure. you really should sympathise with them, they have no goal in life but to ruin your own. unfair being people blaming you for the things you've done no wrong in. like what happened to me today. i'm too damn lazy to explain it. ticked off a littl' but i'm alright now. heck, i'm a guy, i'll forget whatever is being thrown at me in a few minutes. unfair as in loving somebody but that person doesn't not return that much love to you. this is, in my opinion, the ultimate unfairness in life. but that person doesn't love you in the first place, why blame them? what i'm pissed off with is that the person takes advantage of you, thinking that he/she can make you do anything for him/her, oh boy, will that person get it if i ever find out that is what he is doing. but who says life is fair in the first place? i didn't. did you? KICKED ASS AT 8/05/2004 09:21:00 PM. i'm back. yea i can't bear to leave my blog to rust. it's just that maybe there won't be frequent entries anymore. i don't care. i'll oil it once in a while. only when i have blogg-ities ( the sudden urge to blog ALOT ) will i start blogging. i'm just disappointed in my church now. as in REALLY disppointed. two people in my church have done what the church condemns as morally wrong: pre-marital sex. seriously, if they bother to do such a thing, they shouldn't even go to church in the 1st place. i mean, i can imagine it's like after they've attended mass, then it's like this: BOY: ey, church's damn boring. luckily one hour only. damn sian, what do you wanna do now? GIRL: i dunno leh. you suggest leh? BOY: ah.. well, let's go to my place and maybe chill out? then we can get down to.. you know.. GIRL: what? get down to town? BOY: no lar, that thing that thing.. *touches her butt* GIRL: ohhhh... ok lor.. imagine that happening in your church. sigh.. it sickens me. some people should grow up into maturity and know the meaning of consequence. if i were the guy's dad and if i'd find out about this, i'll definately make sure he disowns me instead of me disowning me. if he won't disown me, maybe there'll still be a chance for change? i just hate it. grow up won't you? you are almost 21, and it doesn't give you the right to fool around with women way below your age. and to think i used to look up to you. you just disgrace the church and yourself. on a lighter note, I LOVE JONATHAN PHAY.. because of him, i can get to go to the national day parade for the 2nd time of my life! technically, it's my 2nd time, and it doesn't count the preview. yay.. can see fireworks loh... wheeee... KICKED ASS AT 8/04/2004 09:41:00 PM. seriously, i have nothing to blog about these days. so i won't anymore. don't bother checking back. KICKED ASS AT 8/01/2004 07:31:00 PM. seems like it is back to the normal studying-till-you-drop-dead period. the canoeing season has officially ended. i know, i didn't take part in it and half of me is regretting not to. i miss the intensity of preparation but i don not miss the losing part. really, i miss the routine in canoeing. 1. wakin up in the wee hours of the morning and dragging myself out of bed. 2. rushing to take the bus along with other working people. this part sucks cus' i dun get to sit in the damn bus. 3. warm ups. 4. running for 30 minutes. (used to ran to esplanade from kallang and back. TORTURE) 5. preparing boat. 6. do 1 set of pull ups, crunches and squats. 7. go rowing for abt 2 hrs. 8. wash boat 9. 3 sets with the addition of weights/bars. 10. "cj canoeists, whooooosh!" 11. go shower OR 12. just change. 13. chiong to thomson plaza with glenn and nick to eat bk! 14. stone in the bus. 15. sleep. life's good then. KICKED ASS AT 8/01/2004 12:04:00 AM. |
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