 i linger in the doorway of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name let me stay where the wind will whisper to me where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby i lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me don't say i'm out of touch with this rampant chaos - your reality i know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge the nightmare i built my own world to escape in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby i lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me swallowed up in the sound of my screaming cannot cease for the fear of silent nights oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming the goddess of imaginary light KICKED ASS AT 10/10/2003 10:43:00 PM. kay since i'm damn bored now.. i tot i shld start clearing out the cobwebs in this blog =D 1. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? 0600 hrs.. juz like gd ol' NS.. 2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE? Amy Lee 3. GOLD OR SILVER? BOTH 4. WHAT WAS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA? hmmm... pirates of the carribbean.. crap.. 5. FAVOURITE TV SHOW? the simpsonnnnnnssss.. daa dat dat da daa dat dat dat da da da dat 6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST? bread bread bread bread... i'm sick of it! arhghghghghghgh 7. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE LEFT IN A ROOM WITH? hmmmmm.. evanescence!! den we can jam dark rock togetherrrrrrrrrrrr n relac 1 cornerrr 8. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE? y wld i do tt 4? 9. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? beach.. i dunno whye 10. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME? hmmm... "ben" "ja" "min"... so i guess it's "ja" 11. BEACH, CITY, OR COUNTRY? country............... go rear cows... mo0o0o00 12. SUMMER OR WINTER? walking into winterwonderland 13. YUM? wtf is tt? 14. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN? honeyed! 15. FAVOURITE CAR? ferrari SPIDER! 16. FAVOURITE SANDWICH FILLING? cheesed egg! my creation 17. FAVOURITE TYPE OF MUSIC? DARK rock 19. WHAT CHARACTERISTIC DO YOU DESPISE? hmmm... blardie idiotic ppl who can't keep their fucking mouths shut when they r supposed to 20. FAVOURITE FLOWER? paper flower 21. IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN IN THE LOTTERY, HOW LONG WOULD YOU WAIT TO SPEND ALL? hmm.. waitamin.. ME? strike lottery?? if tt's true the sun will rise in the west 22. DO YOU WEAR PYJAMAS? nah dun wear pjs 23. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? white n black 24. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? y u wan to rob my house issit??? 25 WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO RETIRE? switzerlanddd.... sigh 26. CAN YOU JUGGLE? schoolwork n play? nope 27. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK? saturrrdae 28. RED OR WHITE WINE? vodka 29. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? wished myself happy birthday 30. DO YOU CARRY A DONOR CARD? blooddddddddddddd... 31. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? ECONOMICS EXPLAINED... ya rite.. after all the "explaining" i still dun understand a word 32. FAVOURITE BOARD GAME? any non boring board games 33. FAVOURITE MAGAZINE? FoR HiM mAG 34. FAVOURITE SMELLS? freshly cut grass in da mornin! 35. COMFORT FOOD? chocolatesssssssssssss........ altho' they do more than comfort 36. FAVOURITE SOUND? the sound of a ferrari engine starting... heavennnnnnn... 37. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? suicidal 38. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? shit i overslept.. 39. FAVOURITE FAST FOOD PLACE? BK 41. FINISH THIS STATEMENT. "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY... i'll pinch myself awake 43. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? waddddddddd y u wan to sleep wif a stuffed thanksgiving turkey? 44. STORMS, COOL OR SCARY? shiok 47. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE TIME, I will... waste it 48. DO YOU EAT STEMS OF BROCCOLI? huh can eat 1 ar 49. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE? bleach! 50. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED? scary hairy smelly monsters KICKED ASS AT 10/09/2003 10:31:00 PM. playground school bell rings again rain clouds come to play again has no one told you she's not breathing? hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to hello if I smile and don't believe soon I know I'll wake from this dream don't try to fix me I’m not broken hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide don't cry suddenly I know I'm not sleeping hello I'm still here all that's left of yesterday KICKED ASS AT 10/09/2003 10:10:00 PM. i'm so tired of being here suppressed by all of my childish fears and if you have to leave i wish that you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me you used to captivate me by your resonating light but now i'm bound by the life you left behind your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams your voice it chased away all the sanity in me these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone and though you're still with me i've been alone all along KICKED ASS AT 10/09/2003 10:09:00 PM. |
ME hi, i'm ben, you can call me ben, ben tan, benjamin tan, choc god, whatever.. just don't call me suzy. i'm your not-so-average guy next door (if you really are my neighbour), otherwise i'm just your not-so-average guy. i'm fascinated with ah bengs and their ability to survive in the world right here right now. if i have the money and time and an ah beng, i'll conduct a series of tests and experiments to see how they do it. don't you wanna know too? BY GEORGE... OTHER MEs. cheap shoes!! vic paul miss phua jocheben jasmine beckie isabelle germaine joy gay ben yo. manuel mark camilia cat sophie isa rach incredible tales.. of xiaoming do you like to talk cock? blogger GREETINGS.. BUAY PAISEH AH 
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