 somehow or rather, i feel like i'm gonna regret not going to the retreat tomorrow. either my friends are gonna tell me how fun it was, or my day's gonna be so lousy that i'd wished i was there just to escape from it all. the reason of not going? well.. there are a few: 1. the reason i wrote down was that i have band prac tmr. which is true. 2. i just dun wanna see some people there. just in case i get into a group with them. which is often the case, judging from how sway i am. yea i know, from the last retreat till now, i've made enemies. well not exactly.. just dun wanna see them that's all. not as if they cared anyway. 3. i just realised that in most of the camps i go to, the end of it will mean that either i'll like a girl, but that girl won't, or the girl'll like me, but i won't. it's been the case. no, i'm not bragging. i'm seriously sick of it. in the current dilemma i'm in now, i dun wanna risk another of this nonsense. forgive me. it's not as if i do not trust in God anymore. just that, everything seems to go haywire now. people keep telling me things will go fine after the retreat and i'll leave the place after the allotted no. of days feeling refreshed. sure, i feel refreshed, but this refreshment lasted for a few days only. at the most a week or two. then i'll have to come back for another in a few months time to "charge up my battery". balderdash. it's like taking slimming pills. when you are slim enough after u took ur recommended dosage of pills but when u become fat again, you go looking for another product. to me, it's like a rip off. i'm sorry. youth day celebrations were dumb. damn dumb. shouldn't have come today. "SHUT UP YOUR MOUTH!" HAH. william hung. you suck. i wish life is one long holiday. no worries with a carefree attitude. happy go lucky has a totally different meaning. and at times i wish i was in some remote island off hawaii. CAREFREE. *hula hula*.. KICKED ASS AT 7/09/2004 08:16:00 PM. i hope tomorrow, things will turn out for the better. KICKED ASS AT 7/08/2004 11:25:00 PM. Are ya ready kids? Aye, Aye captain! I can't heeeaaar yooouuu! AYE, AYE CAPTAIN! oooooooooooo......... Who lives in a house built by HDB? SIN-GA-POR-EAN! who watches phua chu kang on wide screen tv. SIN-GA-POR-EAN! If great singapore sale be somethin' ya wish. SIN-GA-POR-EAN! Then get on the bus get ready to rush! SIN-GA-POR-EAN! Ready? SIN-GA-POR-EAN, SIN-GA-POR-EAN, SIN-GA-POR-EAN, SIN-GAAAAAA-POR-EANNNN! Ah Ha Ha, Ha Ha Ha, Ha, hArgh wh..arire..Ha arrrigh. ---------------------------------------------------- i thought of this song cuz my classmate played the song on cd. i'm typically singaporean. argh. i'm so bored. i think i'll start studying after this. ah shit. i forgot wad to blog. anyway. goto this site and vote for daryl as beach hunk!! hahahah.. ladies, pls dun ask me if i noe him cuz if i do i still won't give u his no. KICKED ASS AT 7/07/2004 08:45:00 PM. happy youth day. define youth: a person who spends his youth day at home rotting away, watching tv and bagging chips, thus gaining extra 2 kg. it's a monday. remember to watch friends. simply don't want renaissance to come. when it comes, it means that i'll be getting back my results or worse, letting my parents know the results to my awful mid yrs. i'm disgusted. sigh. last year to celebrate my youth and all i'm doing now is stoning and worrying my heart out about what will the outcome of my life be after results are released. renaissance is in 11 days time. well, i've been reattached. that's right, after exactly 2 years since we've broken up, i'm finally reattached to my one true love. after so much lonely nights, how could i have lived without you? or your voice? i'm sooooooo in love with my sax. but alas, this reunion lasts only until renaissance. i'm sorry i'm gonna betray you. but i gotta get a new sax and treat her the way i treat you darlin'. i'm gonna shower her with love like i did with you. you n me, we made beautiful music together. but all good things had to come to an end. the song which i'll be playing will be dedicated to you. My Love, Paul McCartney. oh, the agony of parting with you is too great. sobs.  KICKED ASS AT 7/05/2004 06:39:00 PM.
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haha ellos michelle here! :) must post anonymously cus stupid blogger requires me to sign up. crappox! oiees stupid to think i really thot u got reattached. my mind was sent shooting in all directions..only to be tricked. haha. good one there. yeah, so i must call my clarinet my lao gong too? but a clarinet seems lil weeny and un-macho to b a man. rather it be my girl-friend. hehe :P haiyah talking rubbish already.. anyway, better go reply u on icq b4 i blabber incessantly here. take care!! :)
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 : 10:48 PM for the record, i ran for 43 mins today. that's right. 43 whole minutes. my brain's fried now. KICKED ASS AT 7/04/2004 09:13:00 PM. |
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