 maybe i'm not for you. and if i'm not, why must you torture me so? i've not done anything to you, what have i done to deserve such suffering? KICKED ASS AT 5/14/2004 07:45:00 PM. I follow the night Can't stand the light When will I begin To live again? One day I'll fly away Leave all this to yesterday What more could your Love do for me? When will Love be through with me? Why live life from dream to dream? And dread the day when dreaming ends One day I'll fly away Leave all this to yesterday Why live life from dream to dream? And dread the day when dreaming ends One day I'll fly away Fly, fly away KICKED ASS AT 5/13/2004 08:08:00 PM. i've learnt not to expect too much.. just let things go the way they were. that's good for you. KICKED ASS AT 5/13/2004 06:26:00 PM. My gift is my song and this one's for you And you can tell everybody that this is your song It may be quite simple but now that it's done I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind That I put down in words How wonderful life is now you're in the world I sat on the roof and I kicked off the moss Well some of these verses, well they, they got me quite cross But the sun's been kind while I wrote this song It's for people like you that keep it turned on So excuse me forgetting, but these things I do You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue Anyway the thing is, what I really mean Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen And you can tell everybody that this is your song It may be quite simple but now that it's done I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind That I put down in words How wonderful life is now you're in the world I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind That I put down in words How wonderful life is now you're in the world ------------------------------------------------ i'm too tired to think... KICKED ASS AT 5/12/2004 10:26:00 PM. trapped. thank you sophie! u're a preeeety great friend to have! i'm glad we were in the same og last year!! (altho both of us were dao for the wrong reasons).. hahahaha weird!!! today was a supa long day.. i wonder if i'm in the top 40 countdown list. heh.. if u are wondering what i'm talking about, it's the tan jek suan "i have to go back on saturday for maintenance" list. hope not.. a mixture of econs test and maintenance for half a day on a sat can be a murder.. especially when i'm gonna miss powerpuff girls already! sigh =( i've gotta go for training tomorrow.. i've been skipping too much already.. so is my partner.. (guilty as charged.) all these procrastination has gotta stop. and my leg doesn't hurt at all ok!? =D KICKED ASS AT 5/11/2004 08:44:00 PM. make me love again. if i ever see hurt, make me love again. if i ever feel pain, make me love again. if i ever lose my patience, make me love again. only You can make me love again. leave the worries behind. kick the falseness away. show your true self, dun stray again. lift your feelings up, always be happy, as i've always been happy with you, so should you feel joy whenever you think of me but lo and behold, evilness is what this world holds dear love? it's been commercialised. joy? it's been commoditised. hate? it's been distributed equally. envy? there's no lack in it. but.. this is NOT of my kingdom... so throw away the hatred, dun leave the mark on you. throw away the jealousy, that make your "dreams" come true for your fantasy is just temporary your dreams will vanish quickly. because.. you came from dust and will go back to dust. ashes to ashes, dust to dust. KICKED ASS AT 5/10/2004 09:39:00 PM. it's in the simple things of life that makes living worthwhile. these few years i've sort for friendships which i thought would last. finally realising that like love, i shouldn't look for it, but wait for it. and when it comes, i should grasp the opportunity given to me and never let it go. should i do so, i'll have to let it free. it isn't my choice, and i wouldn't want it to happen, but some things have to be given way for new ones to come. these few days i realised i've been missing out on the great friendships around me, only to be looking for ones which would not last. how was i to know? but still, it's mostly my fault. kudos to these people who have made my life so simple, yet i refused to believe it is so: moses: sorry i've been on and off in our friendship. i'm glad i've joined rciy. it's been a long time since i've done these stuff and thanks for teaching me and encouraging me. i can safely say you are one of the very few people whom i can turn to for help, that's why i told you about my situation in school. i trust you and hope that you trust in me too. thanks for being a brother to me. i needed one francis yeo: HAH. u blardie slacker. when u become as famous as that khoo swee chow guy, dun forget about the guy who sat beside you in class arh. who sleeps during lecture. (hey you're guilty too k?) and shared the same plight. (you know what i mean) life would be damn boring if you didn't sit beside me. i won't be as lame as i am now. all THANKS to you! arhh.. sophie: i'm just wondering somehow we MAY be related in some ways. haha.. cuz i share certain similar sentiments with you. somehow u sounded like my mother too. haha.. that's y i wished you a happy mother's day! muahahaha. thanks for being my friend. dun forget about our rendezvous at hawaii arh.. haha.. in case i needed to fly away. u take the cruise k? i always see u upset about your friend and stuff. juz hope that this thing will die down yea? everything takes time.. n i'll be there for u like you'll be there for me. it's a promise. hui wen: hey.. thanks for believing in me. i'm sorry things didn't turn out the way you wanted. but i really wan to remain a good friend with you. it's workng out i believe? =) thanks for believing in me then, and believing in me now. you'll always be my confidant. mel: life's so perfect for you. i really envy you. thanks for making me part of your perfect life. to that someone: i'm disappointed things didn't turn out as i expected. i'm sorry but it ain't the same again. i'm being stupid i know, but i dunno where to catagorise you. in the long lost friend? or the staying friend. i guess i'd have to put you in both for now. time will tell.. i'm still disappointed. haha sophie. you said sad things are always being written in my blog. i said i'm morbid. but here. here's my dedication to all my true friends. it's a happy moment aye? +P KICKED ASS AT 5/09/2004 09:37:00 PM. |
ME hi, i'm ben, you can call me ben, ben tan, benjamin tan, choc god, whatever.. just don't call me suzy. i'm your not-so-average guy next door (if you really are my neighbour), otherwise i'm just your not-so-average guy. i'm fascinated with ah bengs and their ability to survive in the world right here right now. if i have the money and time and an ah beng, i'll conduct a series of tests and experiments to see how they do it. don't you wanna know too? BY GEORGE... OTHER MEs. cheap shoes!! vic paul miss phua jocheben jasmine beckie isabelle germaine joy gay ben yo. manuel mark camilia cat sophie isa rach incredible tales.. of xiaoming do you like to talk cock? blogger GREETINGS.. BUAY PAISEH AH 
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