 maybe you shouldn't have told me about it. suddenly it just affects me. i'm not sure why. but it did. KICKED ASS AT 5/22/2004 11:19:00 PM. this has been a lousy week for me. even now i've heard what's supposed to be good news is also bad for me. 1. torturous math and econs lect cuz whenever i look down, i'll see SOMEBODY. (but i've learnt to move on. thanks to you sophie.) 2. can't even qualify for 4 by 100m thanks to SOMEBODY. 3. can't qualify for netball because of SOMEBODY and JEAN YEOW. 4. quarreled with SOMEBODY over some trivial matters. 5. felt angry with SOMEBODY because that SOMEBODY MUST stab my good friend in the back. 6. something just happened. everything is related with a different SOMEBODY this week. i'm losing hope in myself. i can't even concentrate on important stuff anymore. everything just happened. oh well, not like anyone cared for me anyway. that's why this is a place for me to bitch about everything. the internet loves me. is this the way things must end? someone's really blessed to have been attached at this pt of his/her life. it just goes to show that God works in mysterious ways. wonder when this mystery will start on me? somehow or rather, i keep having recurring dreams that i'll spend my old age in future by myself. funny how some dreams seem so real. i'm just being envious of that person. things are more complicated than the way it looks. no one will understand the complexity of it all. not even myself. on the lighter side of things, i'm real glad we got 2nd overall for the sports carnival thingamajig. i guess my class isn't that bad afterall. KICKED ASS AT 5/22/2004 10:27:00 PM. i know i've posted this before. but what the heck.. here's another of my all time favourite. whenever i listen to this song, it reminds me of autumm leaves falling down from the trees.. and i'm juz lying on the park bench juz enjoying the breeze.. i know the lyrics said it felt like springtime, but seriously, this song is more suited for summer =) It felt like spring time on this February morning In the courtyard birds were singing your praise I'm still recalling things you said to make me feel Alright I carried them with me today now As I lay me down to sleep This I pray That you will hold me dear Though I'm far away I'll whisper your name Into the sky And I will wake up happy I wonder why I feel so high though I am not above the sorrow Heavy hearted 'till you call my name And it sounds like church bells or the whistle of a train On a summer evening I'll run to meet you barefoot Barely breathing As I lay me down to sleep This I pray That you will hold me dear Though I'm far away I'll whisper your name Into the sky And I will wake up happy (oh darling) As I lay me down to sleep This I pray That you will hold me dear Though I'm far away I'll whisper your name Into the sky And I will wake up happy It's not too near for me Like a flower I need the rain Though it's not clear to me Every season has its change And I will see you When the sun comes out again As I lay me down to sleep This I pray That you will hold me dear Though I'm far away I'll whisper your name Into the sky And I will wake up happy (oh oh...) As I lay me down to sleep This I pray That you will hold me dear Though I'm far away I'll whisper your name Into the sky And I will wake up happy I wonder why When the sun comes out again When the sun comes out again When the sun comes out again When the sun comes out again When the sun comes out again When the sun comes out again (comes out comes out oooh) And I will wake up happy So I pray ---------------------------- i find that jean yeow is a bitch of a teacher who is bent on winning. what a bitch. KICKED ASS AT 5/21/2004 10:07:00 PM. i fell in love with this song many many years ago.. wish i cld sing this to someone special.. it's MY secret love song. shh.. Are those your eyes? Is that your smile? I've been looking at you for ever, But I never saw you before. Are these your hands? Holding mine? Now I wonder how I could have been so blind. And for the first time, I am looking in your eyes. For the first time, I'm seeing who you are. I can't believe how much I see, When you're looking back at me. Now I understand what love is, Love is... For the first time... Can this be real? Can this be true? Am I the person I was this morning? And are you the same you? It's all so strange. How can it be? All along this love was right in front of me! And for the first time, I am looking in your eyes. For the first time, I am seeing who you are. I can't believe how much I see, When you're looking back at me. Now I understand what love is... Love is... For the first time. Such a long time ago, I had given up on finding this emotion, Ever again. But you're here with me now, Yes I found you somehow, And I've never been so sure. And for the first time, I am looking in your eyes, For the first time, I'm seeing who you are, Can't believe how much I see, When you're looking back at me. Now I understand what love is... Love is... For the first time. KICKED ASS AT 5/20/2004 07:30:00 PM. |
ME hi, i'm ben, you can call me ben, ben tan, benjamin tan, choc god, whatever.. just don't call me suzy. i'm your not-so-average guy next door (if you really are my neighbour), otherwise i'm just your not-so-average guy. i'm fascinated with ah bengs and their ability to survive in the world right here right now. if i have the money and time and an ah beng, i'll conduct a series of tests and experiments to see how they do it. don't you wanna know too? BY GEORGE... OTHER MEs. cheap shoes!! vic paul miss phua jocheben jasmine beckie isabelle germaine joy gay ben yo. manuel mark camilia cat sophie isa rach incredible tales.. of xiaoming do you like to talk cock? blogger GREETINGS.. BUAY PAISEH AH 
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